I Wish --- R. Kelly

I wish, I wish, I wish To every city I wish, I wish, I wish Every hood
I wish, I wish, I wish And every block I wish, I wish, Ghetto America!
Rollin' through the hood Just stopped by to say what's up
And let you know  That your baby boy ain't doing so tough
And even though you passed Going on four long years
Still waking up late at night crying tears Just thinking about those days
You used to talk to me  Smilin' while I'm sippin' on this Hennesy
And remember we bragged on how rich we would be
To get up out this hood was like a fantasy

And now you hear my songs the radio is playin' I can't believe my ears
And what everybody's sayin' And boy I'll tell you
Folks don't know the half  I would give it all up  Just to take one ride

How I used to kick it on the front porch  and how I used to lay back
and smoke weed  and all the little basement party joints we'd do
Now I'm just missing you  How I wish

I wish that I could hold you now I wish that I could touch you now
I wish that I could talk to you Be with you somehow
I know you're in a better place Even though I can't see your face
I know you're smiling down on me  Saying everything's okay
And if I make it out this thug life I'll see you again someday
I wish, I wish, I wish I wish, I wish, I wish

Now ever since this money come  Been nothing but stress
Sometimes I wish I could trade in my success Y'all look at me and say boy you've been blessed But y'all don't see the inside of my unhappiness
Man I swear this shit gets heavy like a ton That's why you hear me shootin'
This real shit off like a gun Hmm I wonder how my friends would treat me 
now If I wasn't iced up with a Bentley and a house  That's why fake ass niggas get fake ass digits  And fake ass players get a real player hatin' 'em
Honey Love goes platinum and y'all ass come around
But y'all don't wanna raise the roof  Until my shit is going down

How I used to hoop off in them tournaments  And how I used to club
hop on weekends our family called the morning of the tragic end
Damn, my condolensces

Voices in my head be telling me to come to church Saying the Lord is 
the only way for you to stop the hurt  Dreaming of windows black tinted 
like a hearse  When waking up to life sometimes seems worst
And all I ever wanted is to be a better man  And I try to keep it real 
with my homies land  For me to save the world I don't understand
How did I become the leader of a billion fans?

How I used to street perform on Friday  And how I used to go to church 
on Easter Sunday  Instead of you all throwing them stones at me
Somebody pray for me

Kelly dedicated this song to his mother Sadie who died in 1993 as well as friends and loved ones that had passed away.                           (songfacts)